Words today just aren't what they used to be...

Yeah they really aren't i mean we have all these abbreviations for shit, like BTW for by the way, and IDK for I don't know. It kinda bugs me but i know i use the things all the time. well there is not much to report here, except that I'm alone and bored! I think i will go to the dessert tonight and just be alone and shit maybe not but IDK it will be fun! so here's to y'all the people who use abbreviations and what not to get the point across!

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Betrayal

Words are a powerful thing. Sometimes people use the to hurt, and other times they use them to comfort. The other night, a "friend" called my cell phone and spoke to Teresa over a length of time, during which he told her so many mean and hurtful things. It wouldn't be such a surprise if we hadn't been trying to rekindle our friendship. He may have not said them to hurt her but he did. Something i will never be able to forgive or forget. You do not mess with my family and if you do expect my fury because that is the only thing you will get out of it. This is nothing so simple that it can be forgotten and it won't. It hurts her in a way that i cannot remedy, which scares me. How can I not make her feel better? It just makes me more depressed and saddened. Seriously what a fucker! What's more is that he brought up the oddity! He used that against her which is simply a low blow. I cannot conceal this rage and anger i have towards him, I want him to hurt on the outside like she hurts on the inside. Aside from that, it is thanksgiving, and I feel lucky that I have a family and friends and am able to eat well tonight, but i do not forget those who don't have what i do, who aren't as blessed as I am. Well i guess this is all for now, Happy Holidays to all, may God bless you today and everyday

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Don't depend on me to ever follow through on anything But I'd go through hell for you

So there are so many things in our life that we don't understand right? well one of those things is how people want you to listen to them, yet when you need them they can't be bothered. This was me feeling last night when i got into an argument and than became depressed. how many times have i looked at my phone and answered regardless of what i was doing? how many times have i listened to friends bitch and complain to me about petty things that seemed so simple? Though the one time it happens to me, the one time i need someone to listen to me and just be there not one of them would talk to me. not one would tell me where they were so i could just do what i needed to do. Though there was one he doesn't count because i ended up listening to him complain about shit that he needed to let out. how sad is that, the only time i needed someone, they all abandoned me. not one of them were there. I learned last night that i need to make better choices and i need to choose my friends better. I came close to loosing someone i love and it freaks me out, but she is still here in my life and for that i am grateful. I find it strange that she is the one steady thing in my life, and that no matter what she is always there. She really is my non-sexual life partner. We have formed a strange bond, not that of lovers but that of family, i spoke of her in my last blog, and i feel i need to explain it more because i am barely seeing the dept of our relationship. I think normally, people who become this close and have this form of bond become intimate, yet we aren't. People in our situation fall in love, yet we aren't, at least not the kind i mentioned. She is my world and my life and my best friend. I know now why i am single, and it's no one's fault but my own. I'm scared that if i start seeing someone the friendship we have built will fade like so many others have and i will not spend the time i do with her. Scary huh? I don't care for now it is good, she is my boyfriend, my best friend, and my life. From a "fag" to his "hag" I love you.

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P.S.
This is something i thought of about Teresa and I.
Also i won't do this often

Life, Transcending....

There are many people who come in and out of your life, and we all know that, it's not a big deal. Yet sometimes there are those people who, for some reason, step in and than take hold of you and, for reasons unknown, you cannot let leave. These people become your friends, and still there are others who, aside from being friends enthrall you and become closer to you, these people become best friends. Still though, there are maybe one or two people in your life who go further than that. They know you in and out and still love you, they are connected to you by an invisible thread that can never be broken. These people become more than friends and best friends, they become family. I am lucky enough to have all sorts of friends, and even more so lucky to have friends who have moved past the stage of friendship and gone to family. Teresa is that one person in my life who has become my family. We discussed this yesterday. Interesting no? Yet there is another person who holds this potential, Bridgette. She has moved up in my life and although we don't see each other much we know there is something there, a friendship waiting to become family. I miss her so and i love her and you know what, she is one to be kept in my life. Just like Ehrin, Bridgette will be here for me and i will be here for her. Here's to these people i love and know love me back, here's to family!

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Drunken Lullibies...

Usually when you plan getting drunk or something of the like, you want to be at a party right? well for me it's not a big deal, i can be in the company of a close friend which i was. Last night i Got fucked up with the besty, Teresa. It was so much fun not the drunk part, but just being with her, seriously she is the one person i can just chill with her and have a good time. Aside from that i saw an old friend, Andrew, and Teresa and hung out with him, it was nice to see him. well that's about it. Also the holiday season is here and I'm getting ready for it! Cheers!

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Cheers, Jeers, and Beers...

Yesterday was one of the best days of my life! seriously! Yesterday i was asked to attend the JACC which is The Journalism Association of Community Colleges, and speak with my fellow students about our live broadcast that we did on election day. I never thought i would have as much fun as i did. When awards rolled around i was really nervous even though i wasn't personally up for any. They gave out the awards and to my surprise we won more than twenty! possibly thirty! I was up and cheering when Substance won general excellence! Despite the fires burning around us we decided to celebrate. We went to Shawn's house and drank the night away! I did my first Beer Bong and got into it with some bitch who poured beer all over me. It was seriously real fun and Aldo gave me a tattoo. So that was my night and I will never forget it!

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Negative...

is sometimes a good thing! Like today it was a good thing, cos it was a negative test! I got an STD test and it came back negative so i was ecstatic! Now the time has come and I made a promise to fight for a cause and i will keep it. Not only am i a gay rights activist, i am now an HIV/AIDS activist. This will be my life's goal for the rest of the time i am alive. Aside from that, today i feel kinda sick and spoke to one of my best friends Ehrin, she is an amazing woman going through some tough shit right now so if y'all could send her a prayer that would be amazing. Well i believe for now it is time for me to go, but tune in tomorrow for another confession of a teenage bodysnatcher!

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D-Day, B-Day

So today was my mothers birthday, and she wanted to go to Disneyland. what a surprise? Well being the good son I am I went and had some fun. It was a strange day because, first off, my family got along pretty well, and two, i saw so many people i knew. Andrew Parslow, who i have been seeing all over town was there and talked to me for like an hour, he didn't know i was gay and didn't seem to get the hint. When he finally figured it out, he just kinda ignored it and went on talking, NON STOP! seriously dude, shut up! anyhow, it was fun to see my mom have a good time and now i am so tired I'm about to collapse hehe. There is a protest this Friday i think, that i will attend and will hopefully bring photos of, and you guessed it, another blog!

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One step at a time...

Hello and Welcome to my Blog, the reason for this is to just chronicle my life during these hard times. What I am talking about of course is the recent passing of Prop 8 and the loss of rights. Aside from that it is to share the many (miss)Adventures that i may, and most certainly will have. So dare to take a trip down a twisted, and sometimes frightening road that always ends with laughter. You may not agree with what i say or see, and that is not something i am concerned with, and should that be the case you are more than welcomed to leave and complain to who ever owns this site but i promise you will leave feeling something. So let's take this thing one step at a time, hold your breath, tap your heels three times, and head for the second star to the left and go straight on till morning.

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