Dream Lover...

So today marks the beginning of my journey into adulthood. Yes I get that I've been a legal adult now for some time, but I mean in a more mental/emotional way. I will be moving to Seattle very soon, and I am scared shitless, like seriously. But that is not the reason I'm writing today. I have wanted to leave for some time now, and it was planned to go with friends, but none are willing or capable of going so I'm doing it on my own. I realize I'm hurting the people I love most but I feel like this is the right decision for me at the moment, like there is something (or someone) waiting for me there.

Last night I stayed at Teresa's house and we had a good long talk and argument. She's gonna miss me like I'm gonna miss her but I will still go. So I went to sleep and had an odd dream, about me finding love, odd huh? I was somewhere far, and some time had passed, and I met a guy. I was with some guy and I saw the other guy and I guess spoke to him. More time seemed to have passed and we were coming down to my parents house so I could meet his family and he could meet mine. I was be...obscene in the car when we stopped and got out. It looked like there was a street fair going on and there were people I knew all around. I just wanted to get to my parents house but he was chatting with them and buying a bunch of crap. We somehow ended up at my Nana's house, which was odd, but we were alone. We were sitting on the couch about to do the deed when his mom arrived. I was so nervous and answered the door with no shirt. I got one on and than invited her in. She was talking to I'm about God knows what when I asked her to leave because my parents were home. They came in and met him and were talking about how they had found some porn in the house. I remember hoping it wasn't mine. We went into what I'm assuming was my room, and laid on the bed. He brought out a movie when Teresa was asking about Octavio, and I was pissed. So she left and we were gonna watch the movie and that's when Teresa woke me up to turn off the alarm....what a crazy dream...