What is today's question of the day? I have to ask, how do you combine your love and your passion? That is something I have been asking myself a lot lately, how do I keep on loving while still enjoying the passions I have in my life? To be honest, this has never been an issue with me, the couple of times I have been in love I was always able to go about my daily life not caring what was going on with my boyfriend/love interest at the time. Now however, my love is almost consuming, it is a genuine living monster that breaths cold fire every moment I see my boyfriend. I think it has something to do with the fact that I haven't been this in love before, and I know everyone says that a million times, but for me it's true. Nate brings out a side of me I never knew I had, and this isn't always a good thing. I am horribly jealous and untrusting when it comes to love, but Nate somehow makes things better. The moment I being to doubt him or us, he's there reassuring me without even knowing it.
Yesterday was our anniversary, one month officially, but we've been together since December. I guess that means it's more like five months? Anyhow, I sent him a text in the morning when I realized and he didn't make a big deal of it, and responded with his usual message about loving me. I wasn't upset or anything but i was slightly perplexed, why didn't he wish me a happy anniversary? So it also happened to be mothers day and we were going to meet my mother at her house for a family party. There was a problem because he wanted to take his mother to dinner, and I wanted him to meet my family, so we agreed to work it out when I got home. So long story short, when I get out of work I get a message from my mom that my brother is having emergency surgery, his appendix needed to be removed.
Of course being the person I am, I flipped out and drove back to Nate's house and told him what was happening. We decided to go to the hospital for a little then out to dinner with his mother. Did I mention that he MADE a bouquet of flowers for my mom, like picked flowers, bought some, and arranged them in a pretty vase? Well he did and my mother loved them. She liked him too, but in a hospital you like everything that isn't related to the person being worked on.
When we got back, we sat on the couch and watched some TV, and out of the blue he said he had something for me in the back seat of his car. I was really confused because I hadn't seen anything but agreed to go out and get whatever it was. To my shock it was a card, filled with the most amazing words I have ever read, professing his love and dedication to me. I was beyond touched, he had cared about the one month milestone.
So I guess I have diverged from my talk about passion, but not really. My passion is life and all that it has to offer, my love is Nathan and all he is. how do I combine the two? By enjoying my life with Nathan, and allowing myself to grow as an individual and as part of a couple.
Happy Thoughts....
P.S. Here is an awesome playlist, it makes me happy when I'm not feeling too good. Also, the title of this post is the name of one of the songs, in case you hadn't already guessed.
