The Story So Far

Why must I always start with a question? Well today's post starts with this questions, why am I so content to forget my dreams in favor of love? In case you missed it, and since I haven't posted in a long time you probably have, I am in a relationship with an amazing guy. We've been dating since December, and at first I thought it was going to be something silly. I planned to move to NYC in June and he was simply going to be my entertainment until then, little did I know that I would fall madly in love with him. He is beyond amazing, there are no words to describe him, except love.

Anyhow, I am at a point that makes me uncomfortable because I don't know what I want anymore. I wanted to go to New York, to live a new part of my life and see where I could go. Now though that he is in my life, I don't want to leave him, I don't want to be far from his side. It may be that I am incredibly jealous, and I have a hard time trusting people, and that I am just getting over that jealousy with him.
Moving forward, this love of him confuses me, I no longer have the urge to be a journalist in the respect that I once did. I still want to travel and see the world, to photograph and write but not unless I am with him. This post is turning out to be very whiny isn't it?
Well, he's downstairs at the moment cleaning or something, and I am sitting typing away on his computer on his bed in his room feeling more and more lost as the minuets tick by, and more in love then I have felt in many years.

Happy Thoughts...




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