Gimme More

Wow, another day, another dream right? Well I can tell you that yeah that's how it is, for many reasons of course.

Today was the release of the new issue of the Mountaineer, and the launch of the website, mountiewire.com, and it felt pretty good to have my name on there. The fruit of my loins and of others, has finally come to fruition, and that's not something to sneeze at. Also, in the newspaper, I wrote an opinion about something very controversial, which is always a good thing. There was only one little draw back, a lot of people where offended by it.

I'm not saying that offending people is wrong, if you do it in the correct manor, but it could very well get me killed. In fact, Toni told me to tell her if I got any threats, kinda freaky huh? To be be honest though, I'm not scared, the thought of it kinda makes me want those who are offended to tell me something so I could defend my reasoning.

On other, more joyous news, I spoke to a fried, who we can call "molly" told me she had a crush on another writer and that this writer had mutual feelings for her. Nice right? Of course it is, and I'm, happy for her but it made me think of a face I haven't seen in a while, who I saw today by chance.

Ah, the elusive one, who we shall call "Sean." Now Sean and I are nothing more than friends, but I think for me it's a little more complicated than that. When we talk, it flow, if that makes any sense, and I don't have to be myself, it just am without any concerns. At first I was nervous talking to him, since, to the best of my knowledge he's straight, but I've come to realize it doesn't matter to him.

I know for a fact he knows I have a small crush on him, and it's amazing that he doesn't get awkward, or tell me to back off, that's really rare to find in a straight guy. I know my luck has my falling for the straight guy and I think it may be my downfall some day, but right now it's nice to flirt and have him flirt back, even if he's not interested.

Sean is one of a kind, we have very similar taste in music, and we connect in a strange way, not like I've connected with anyone in a long time...no I've never connected with anyone like this before. Strange isn't it that when I first saw him I thought he was so scary and totally against the gays, little did I know he would be a dear friend, and a current love interest, not that he's interested in me.

Happy Thoughts...