Teenage Dream...

So it's been a while since I last wrote but I feel I was justified. Anyhow tonight I will be writing about something I feel I need to, out of sheer shock. Glee.
To those of you who are not fans I need to say one thing, This is one bandwagon you want to be on. To those who already are fans, keep it going.

The show is pretty amazing, and it's really got a good message and such. One of the main themes is diversity, and acceptance. Tonight's episode, "Never Been Kissed" was all about diversity and acceptance... in a way.

To those fans who haven't seen it, SPOILER ALERT!

*************************************************************************************
So Kurt has been feeling down about being the only out kid at school, and it's kinda taking it's tole on him. So when Fin tells him to go to the all boy school to "spy" he bitterly accepts. What he finds, is an accepting place where people who are different don't have to hide themselves, and in the process meets a very, VERY attractive guy. He watches the Dalton Acadomy Warblers performer a cover of "Teenage Dream" and Kurts eyes seem to twinkle.



He Befriends openly gay Blain, and is encouraged to confront the bullies and fight for what's right. This is where things get even better!
After being shoved against a locker, kurt chases after the jock and calls him out in the locker room, leading to a magnificent kiss!



*************************************************************************************

OK So there has been a lot of speculation about who will be Kurts boyfriend, and now it seems clear to me that it's gonna be this jock. No joke.

That's pretty much it for now, till next time.

Happy Thoughts...

My Delirium

So I'm awake so early and I should be sleeping. It's not that I'm not tired or anything it's just that I can't sleep. I have been having nightmares lately and I always have them but these have been very especially terrifying. Tonights kinda pushed the limit in my book, it really freaked me out, so much so that I had to turn the light on.

Why didn't I just go back to sleep you ask? Well this dream as so damn vivid and real I couldn't risk sleeping. I was dreaming that I was chasing a demon or something, not sure if that's it but I think so. I was with some people and this demon was going from person to person and we couldn't stop it. I was told by one of the people we were with that it was the one who possessed someone who's name began with an "M" or maybe that was it's name?

Anyhow, it was pretty scary cos there was like this scroll or something that I had and when it saw that it came at me, and that's what woke me up. I hate having nightmares, especially ones that involve the devil or demons cos I never know if it's just a dream or if it's real. I usually wake up from my nightmares with some kind of panic and the dream usually lingers for a while after. If I happen to wake up in the middle of the night I most likely won't be able to fall asleep again, like tonight.

Well to change the mood here are some morning songs for you to enjoy, and possibly lull you back to sleep.

My Delirium - Ladyhawke

Night Drive - Jimmy Eat World

Stormy Weather - Etta James

Blue Moon - Jo Stafford

Bowl For Two - The Expendables

Never Been Alone - The Cutaway


Happy Thoughts...


P.S.

Don't Get Lost in Heaven...

It's been a while sine I last posted and I was inspired by a friend to post. This won't be a long post just an update, I'll post more for y'all later maybe tomorrow? Anyhow, school is going and I think I took too much on... like usual. It's an amazing feeling to be back in the newsroom but there are little things here and there that bother me. I wish I was an editor that way I could do/write more. I'm not to sure what people think of me trying to get my fingers in everything, which is what I'm doing, and I'm not too sure I care. I designed the magazine and newspaper website which I am incredibly proud of, I think I maybe one of the few people in there who knows how to use illustrator. I've also been working on a really cool videocast, like hella sick. It's called The Score! and I'm doing it with Justin Enriquez...at least I think that's his last name. I won't even get into work right now, but let's just say I'm not sure if I can go to school and work at the same time. Anyhow folks that's about it, I'm about to go to work, gonna be there till one thirty A.M. wish me luck!

Happy thoughts...




P.S. Episode #2 of The Score

Breathe Without Breaking

Since I've been locked in my house for WAY too long, I've decided it's time to post once more. SO what have I been doing, where have I been? No where actually, but I have discovered a few interesting things. For example, the Ex-Boyfriends! O M G what an amazing band they are! I have been listening to them all day, and with good reason. They pretty much did all the music for the movie The Butch Factor, which was pretty interesting (y'all should see it if you get the chance), and they are ACTIVE!!! That's a big deal with artists I like, they are either disbanded or on hiatus...

The Ex-Boyfriends are San Francisco based, queer(I think) and seemingly only play in bar in S.F. which is a drag. I don't know if they tour but I hope they do cos I want to see them live.

In other news, I was/am really sick but getting better(I hope) and just longing to get out of the house. Summer is here and I can't do anything, no beach, no parties, nor clubs, no nothing. It's made me very depressed, and a little while ago I was supposed to go to Teresa's house and she decided last minute to rescind her invitation and that really hurt. It was the only thing I was looking forward to doing, the only thing that I could do. So I'm bitter, I'm hurt, and the good mood brought on by the Ex-Boyfriends has been blasted away.

Enough of my whinny ninny ass complaints, I hope this summer is amazing, technically the last one before adulthood(21) so I can only do my best to make it good, better than that actually. Here's hoping!

Happy Thoughts...
Free Signature Generator



P.S. Today's title come from the Album In With by the Ex-Boyfriends. Support and buy their shit. iTunes

Bacl to California

The days are counting down to my return to California and I cannot say I'm not panicking. I have no money to my name, I don't have a replacement roommate yet, and I don't know how to cope with moving back into my parents house. I know it's for the better, but I cannot escape a feeling of regret, of moving back several steps. This isn't the time to second guess myself and I won't.

I can go back to school now, and I can work on saving money to move back out. I can look for a healthy relationship, and I can use my money the way I want instead of paying rent. I cannot say for certain that I will come back to Seattle, but I know if I do, it won't be forever. L.A. is my home, and that's where I belong. I was silly to think otherwise.

Happy Thoughts...

Something

What a glorious morning! I feel pretty awake at the moment...kinda. My cup of coffee is here besides me and I am looking forward to the day, not my working day but just the day if that makes sense. Well that's it for now, here some good morning music for ya.

Monkey - Counting Crows

Don't Stop Believing - Journey

Avalon - Roxy Music

For no One - The Beatles

Holding out for a Hero - Emery

Folkin' Around - Panic! At the Disco

So folks have a good morning and a better day

Happy Thoughts...




P.S.

Sun It Rises

So as an early morning treat for you folks, I decided to post some really good morning songs to kick start your day.

Mother Mary - Foxboro Hot Tubs

Sick Muse - Metric

White Winter Hymnal - Fleet Foxes

Hella Nervous - Gravy Train

The Christians and the Pagans - Dar Williams

Sweet Disposition - The Temper Trap

Higher than the Stars - The Pains of Being Pure at Heart

Pot Kettle Black - Tily and the Wall

Hope y'all get a kick out of these songs, and your day is a pretty sweet.

Happy Thoughts...


P.S.

heres a little sample.

Ode to the Family.

So folks, here I am once more sitting and doing something that should never be done alone; Thinking.

Family seems to be something everyone has/needs right? I love mine, and would never wish for another one, however; for the last several weeks I have been going to church each Sunday with another family here in Seattle. I really enjoy church and the time I get with God, but I also enjoy the warmth of family I have been missing since I moved out here. The connections are very strong within the family, and I long for my own.

After mass each Sunday, the family and I usually go out to brunch at this small restaurant and enjoy a few hours of talking and enjoying each others company. The family consists of the Mother, Father, three Girls(one being my roommate) and two boys. I absolutely adore the youngest boy, he's I believe nine(9) and just a ball of fun! He reminds me of the boys I had at camp, eager to live and enjoy all the mysteries of childhood. For example, today was Easter and it was pretty packed at church. The boy, I'll call him Jake for anonymity's sake, just wouldn't sit still. He kept looking around, taking his gum out and playing with it. I must admit, I was getting frustrated, but when he would laugh and giggle it was OK. There was also a moment where he acted so mature, and did as was expected of him.

The other boy, Jack we'll call him, is in high school and swears he's the shit. It's funny to watch him act, and react to the people at church. He is so ready to become a man, yet holding onto childhood like a safety blanket. He thinks hes a "gangster" but beneath all that tough attitude there is a little boy. He was trying to be a thug by wearing a polo that was two sizes too big for him to church, but it looked like he was a baby wearing his fathers shirt. He's a good kid, he just needs a good kick in the pants every now and again.

This family is truly something, they almost feel like a second family to me. It pains me that I must go back to school and leave them behind, but I will see them again, if it's the last thing I do. Until the day I leave I will cherish every moment I can spend with them.

Happy Thoughts...
r

Plans

Well, what a dream my life has become. I am no longer in control of who I am, or how I feel. I long for the sun in Covina, and I miss the way the wind would go through my hair as I rode my bike around town. How did things become so twisted and distorted? I have made up my mind and plan on moving back, but my only concerns now are the people who I am going to be leaving behind. I love this house, and the people who share it with me, but my well being is something I am not willing to sacrifice in order to stay. As a GOOD man once told me, "Your first obligation is to yourself." I agree, but at what costs should we look out for number one?

I am taking this very hard, and though I long for Covina, I still love it out here. I guess it's something I need to accept, I can't make everyone happy. I also feel there was a reason I came here, and not to just escape, but to help or teach. I think I have done that, and it's now time to move on. I've helped the one who needed my help but back home they need my help as well. Trouble is brewing and I'm needed.

It's very egotistical to speak this way but I believe it's the truth. At the moment I'm feeling restless, and scared, and just a plethora of different emotions. Well, I plan on moving back before April is up, and I also plan to tie up any loose ends that may need tying. Here we go folks, let's get this train rolling.

Happy Thoughts....



Free Signature Generator

In Transit

What a life this is my little ones, isn't it? There is so much going on at the moment, and I'm not sure how to deal with it all. To begin with, I am up for a promotion at the place where I work. This is a good thing, and if all goes well I can be up for a manager position in three months or less.

If that all happens I plan on applying for a manager position back home in California. I miss it, and I really want to go back. I love the people I live with and I would never do anything to hurt them but I need to do what is best for me, and if it means going back home for school and/or a better job, I will. C.H., S.B., M.M., and C.Y. are some pretty cool people, and I love them with all that i am, but again, this isn't their life or show, it's mine.

On another note, I was cheated on by my boyfriend and now I have no trust for men. It's simple as that, I don't trust them. I joke that maybe I'll become a Lesbian, but the thought of vagina both frightens and disgusts me. I guess all I can really do at the moment is my best and see where the wind takes me. I'm getting the same feeling I did when I was about to move out here, a sort of restless itch inside my soul.

And that brings me back to the roommates again doesn't it? I don't know how I will survive in California without them, or at my parents home for that matter. Things are so much simpler living on my own, and moving back in with my parents means that loss of freedom. Having to let people know where I'm going or what I'm doing isn't my style. Here, I can come and go as I please, and I don't need to worry about coming in late, or at all. maybe I should rethink this, but I can't, I need to go back to school. After I have my degree I'll come back, and if I'm lucky maybe they will have me back in the house with them.

Happy Thoughts...ree Signature Generated