In Transit

What a life this is my little ones, isn't it? There is so much going on at the moment, and I'm not sure how to deal with it all. To begin with, I am up for a promotion at the place where I work. This is a good thing, and if all goes well I can be up for a manager position in three months or less.

If that all happens I plan on applying for a manager position back home in California. I miss it, and I really want to go back. I love the people I live with and I would never do anything to hurt them but I need to do what is best for me, and if it means going back home for school and/or a better job, I will. C.H., S.B., M.M., and C.Y. are some pretty cool people, and I love them with all that i am, but again, this isn't their life or show, it's mine.

On another note, I was cheated on by my boyfriend and now I have no trust for men. It's simple as that, I don't trust them. I joke that maybe I'll become a Lesbian, but the thought of vagina both frightens and disgusts me. I guess all I can really do at the moment is my best and see where the wind takes me. I'm getting the same feeling I did when I was about to move out here, a sort of restless itch inside my soul.

And that brings me back to the roommates again doesn't it? I don't know how I will survive in California without them, or at my parents home for that matter. Things are so much simpler living on my own, and moving back in with my parents means that loss of freedom. Having to let people know where I'm going or what I'm doing isn't my style. Here, I can come and go as I please, and I don't need to worry about coming in late, or at all. maybe I should rethink this, but I can't, I need to go back to school. After I have my degree I'll come back, and if I'm lucky maybe they will have me back in the house with them.

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