Bullet Proof...I Wish I Was

Wow. That's all I can say for the past few days. This past weekend I felt so alone and morbid without my editors in town, but now that I'm back in the newsroom I feel like the little pieces of me that were away in New York have all joined back in me. Yes I know that may seem inconceivable to some, and may be kinda odd to most, but the connection I have with my fellow writers is something that cannot be described. In fact, to say anything about it is to just degrade it more, no I cannot say much about what I feel for them, so I won't.

On another more "girly" note, today I had fun with this guy, who for all intents and purposes shall remain named; Shade. This guy is not only a beefed out piece of meat, BUT he is also a smart sweet STRAIGHT guy, I know right? Well let me give you some more information about this guy, not that I'm obsessing(me? no never!)

I started seeing him around in the newsroom from time to time when he would come to check in for his blogging class, the whole time I was curious as to who he was(and if he was part of the family.) When the banquet came around, I was lucky enough, if you call it luck, to sit next to him, where my nervous, idiotic self could barely talk. He seemed like a cool guy and within seconds of talking to him I knew he was straight, but that he was a cool guy none the less. Thus my little infatuation with him semi-dissolved.

Later on, after winter break, I saw him in the newsroom and decided it would be alright to talk to him and see what he was really like. To my general surprise, he was pretty chill, down to earth, and knew music! The first day I really talked to him I was impressed by his openness, and I found it very attractive. I was s shy after that, I began smiling and laughing during our conversations, crazy much right?

I was walking one day after our little talks and saw him eating lunch alone and asked why this was so and told him he could eat in the newsroom. This surprised him and he said he would start eating there when he was on campus. This has made my year.

During the times we have spoken in the newsroom, I have began to come out of my shell more and more with him, and in getting to know him, have realized that he is one of the coolest guys I know. I know this sounds a little freaky and He may read this at some point, to that I would like to say this; "Shade, Your a cool fucker and that's all I feel."

Today was better than ever for two facts;

1) We had to distribute papers and on the walk there talked about shit like the freaky anime creeps, to how unhealthy my lunch was(he's a health freak BTW.)

2) We had a huge discussion about music after he got back, and laughed a lot with Charlye, Jessica, and even Toni. When he was leaving he gave Charlye a hug, Dustin a hug, and he picked me up, kinda in a way. Yeah I pretty much melted. and worst of all, He noticed.

Either way, He is one of the most chill people I have ever met, and am glad he gave me the time of day when a lot of straight people may have been too creeped out by my total creepiness and overly obvious accidental flirtation. Here's to straight guys being cool with the gays.



Happy Thoughts...